Long time....no write...
I had to give myself some time. I just HAD TO. I really didn't recover from the Valentine CRAZY until yesterday. It was a level of busy I had never seen...and since it was on a Friday, meaning I had do it ALL OVER the next day...then one day off...then another week and another week of CRAZY BUSY. It just piled up...and I JUST crawled out from under it.
Busy is good. Busy is money. Busy is happy customers. Busy is amazing cakes and delicious cupcakes. Busy is GREAT. BUT, busy also means less time with my kids....less time for me....So one of the things I have been privately (and kind of publicly) working on is giving ME time and being OK with that.
I don't know when it happened, but at some point I just starting working and NEVER taking a break. I got up at 3:30 am, got ready, and went to work...and I never stopped. From making cupcakes, to answer emails, to having impromptu meetings with one person after another "that just decided to drop this idea on you today"... to blogging at 4am on my only day off. I NEVER STOPPED WORKING.
And then I saw myself in the mirror.
I looked like shit....it REALLY took a toll on my body and my soul. I didn't look like ME. I was miserable.
So, I just stopped. I started pulling back from the things that I could pull back from. I became OK with not answering emails within 10 minutes of receiving them. I put off blogging. I put off the little shit -that when done constantly- was eating up every minute of every day of MY life.
Don't get me wrong. I'm still making cupcakes, baking cookies, and deciding what the hell new flavor we'll come up with next. But Brian and I decided that after I pick up Lucy from school I drive her home to do homework with him and Abbi. I then go back to work for a couple more hours, and then I go home FOR GOOD at 5 pm.
5 pm?? That's still a 12-hour day!
Yes. I know. But, when you're used to working 14-21 hour days (yes, a 21-hour day HAS happened) over and over and over again, a 12-hour day sounds like HEAVEN...and it IS heaven.
I'm not going to lie. It doesn't work every day. BUT, it is a habit that I WANT to make permanent. So far, so good...at some point I may start to recognize that girl I see in the mirror again.
NOW...we WERE busy, so forgive me for the lack of cake pics, but let's take a look at what I DID manage to take picture of. HERE ARE THE Cakes O' the Week!
Buttercream Lines with fresh flowers wedding cake:
Baby Carriage and Pacifier baby shower cake (to top a cupcake tower):
Turtle-topped baby shower cake:
Ropin' Cowboy birthday cake:
Curious George on his ball birthday cake (customer brought in toy):
Giant cupcake birthday cake (yes, Liisa is the correct spelling!):
Fondant ruffles and flower wedding cake:
And the Big Daddy is a Little Daddy...We're making show cakes for the bakery, and THIS is the one I designed. I just love a textured cake...
When you own your own business, and your entire life is based on the success of it, YOU WILL WORK....a lot. But you also need to recognize that if YOU are no longer there...and it's just the shell of a person runnin' the place...you MAY need to pull it back a bit and give YOURSELF some time.
Here's to new habits!